Monday, October 23, 2006

do re mi

I have come to a realization. And, as always, when I come to a realization, that realization gets posted on my blog. Judging by the gaps in posts, I don't realize often.

The youth of America loves music. In fact, of all obsessions in our society, I would say music reigns as #1 - yes, above sports. I have found that my generation defines their lives through music. I have friends who relate to hip-hop and think that Tupac's words were words to live by, or that Luda just "gets it." I have other friends who are into a more underground style of music - the music of raves or "shows" at places I'd likely never enter. They play that music at a high volume and watch their frustration and disdain dissipate more with ever beat. I have friends who have decided that music is what their lives will revolve around, who have majored in music of some sort, spent all of their free time learning and playing music, dedicated their hearts to their bands and concerts or to other bands and concerts, and decided to pursue it professionally. Whether it's jazz greats, jam bands, pop singers, or hard rock, the music moves their lives.

For example, ask 5 of your friends this question:
"If you were stuck on a deserted island for the rest of your life, what one thing would you want with you?"
I promise that at least 4 of those 5 friends will say something along the lines of "my CD collection," "my ipod," "my music collection," or "my instrument of playing preference." Music defines my generation.

Where do I fit in with this? Well, I have come to the conclusion that I'm the odd man out. I don't really care for music. It's not that music bothers me, but I don't really give a shit about it. Sometimes, I enjoy playing some background music while I cook. I certainly like the radio on in the car. I love to dance, and find dancing to be quite easier with music on. But beyond such isolated events, I wouldn't care if music was completely cut out of my life. I like certain singers and groups and can somewhat reasonably call myself a "fan," and I can fairly doubtlessly say I love Billy Joel, but even playing one of my 22 Billy CDs is sometimes a forced action. I just dont like music. Inga made this realization on the 50th time that I turned down the stereo that she had put on for her listening pleasure. I just find it to be noise - even the groups I like.

I may likely attribute this to several facts about myself but inconclusively, as I am not a psychologist and don't have the funds at the moment to speak with such an expert. First, I love television and I think that TV is my music. Just as others couldn't go on without music, I cannot go on without TV. People are shocked when they find out how many hours of TV I fit into my week, but -really- that is just the time that others are listening to their ipods, right? Perhaps I'm better stimulated visually rather than auditorily. Maybe it's because I have no musical talent whatsoever (7 years of piano lessons and I can't play shit). I'm not sure.

The interesting thing is that I'm surrounded by musicians. 70% of my close friends are in a band or have been at some point of their lives. 99% of my friends would say that music is super important to them. There must be a reason I have chosen to associate with such people, or is that really just my entire generation and I have no choice in the matter of music appreciation? I will say, however, that I found my match in Roy. He, too, is not thrilled by music and cannot really answer the question of "What do you listen to?" He, however, is a master pianist. ::Shrug::

Well, anyway, let's take that long-winded post (when is it otherwise?) as a superb introduction to the following musician, who did evoke some emotion from me this evening. There really is music and voices out there that just make you feel lonely, loved, loving, and fairly romantic all at the same time. This is one of them: http://myspace.com/joshuaradin <= Joshua Radin

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Royal Sass

I would believe this unless I truly trusted Billy who truly trusts his friend, but here is Billy's friend's account of an incident from his recent flight. This is purely spectacular!

Billy's Friend:

My flight was being served by an obviously gay flight attendant, who seemed to put everyone in a good mood as he served us food and drinks. As the plane prepared to descend, he came swishing down the aisle and told us "Captain Marvey has asked me to announce that he'll be landing the big scary plane shortly, so lovely people, if you could just put your trays up, that would be super."On his trip back up the aisle, he noticed this well-dressed and rather Arabic looking woman hadn't moved a muscle. "Perhaps you didn't hear me over those big brute engines but I asked you to raise your trazy-poo, so the main man can pitty-pat us on the ground."ยป She calmly turned her head and said, "In my country, I am called a Princess and I take orders from no one." To which (I swear) the flight attendant replied, without missing a beat, "Well, sweet-
cheeks, in my country I'm called a Queen, so I outrank you. Tray-up, Bitch."

Billy & Me @ a pre-VMA party. The picture of Marco just seems appropriate.

Stay Golden

Xcess20: put a smile on your face, make the world a better place, put a smile on your face (whatcha gonna do, whatcha gonna do) smile

Getting an IM like that, when you are in a particularly shittastic mood, is better than hot apple cider on a cold winter's night....or something like that. Either way, Kenneth Golden rocks my world :)

he's just special

He must have just gone through his life oblivious of his surroundings....

SNL had a skit where they said "Fugly."
Roy goes: "Wow, I invented that term years ago! I guess it's spreading!"
We will now refer to Roy as "Al Gore."


Also, he asked "Is 3rd Rock From the Sun still on?"

wtf.

Thursday, September 21, 2006

zombie

Woah. What a semester it is. They say that your second year in law school is easier. They ("they" being anyone with an opinion, regardless of whether they've actually gone to law school) are right - and wrong.

It is easy because there are no surprises. Even with all of the construction and renovation and random room closings at Cardozo (my law school of choice), I am not taken aback and keep my bitching to a minimum. The socratic method no longer surprises me either. I am not startled when I hear my name called during my super important game of Spider Solitaire. The amount of reading, for one reason or another, actually seems - dare I say - reasonable. These feels were not present last year when every day seemed to be packed with reasons to cry.
No tears this year.

What has changed, however, is that I am overwhelmed - as always - in a much different way. I am involved. I signed up for clubs and societies at the club fair and I actually participate in them. I attend meetings that aren't offering any free kosher pizza. I am on a law journal and I took a position on it, keeping me fairly busy (Assistant Symposium Editor...hachacha). I am on the SBA (student bar association) and, thus, keep busy making sure the school runs smoothly (not really, but planning bar nights is hard!). All in all, I have less time than I did last year, but work is not my main time filler. Plus, there's the internship at the entertainment law firm (Goz McMichael, LLC). Making movie magic!

It's still overwhelming and it probably always will be. And, no, I am not writing this as an excuse for my ever-tardy post. I am simply a procrastinator at heart. I am writing this for the observation that childhood is fully complete and there's no going back. We will never have time on our hands again. We will always be busy whether it's a heavy workload or a whole other slew of duties. We are growing up and as our ages increase, our time decreases. It's sad. I dont like it. I'm not alone in this.

I feel like every day I struggle to make myself look like less of the zombie I am becoming. Oil of Ole is doing nothing for the bags under my eyes. Each day as I walk through the revolving doors of Cardozo, my main concern is "I hope I look human." Is that a bad thing? Care to comment?

Sunday, August 27, 2006

Goodbye, Summer '06

It's raining right now in New York. I'm not sure if the rain is to blame, but everything's a bit "blah" right now. No motivation to do anything, nothing to do really. I could clean a bit and work on resumes and cover letters for firms. Nothing is pressing today. I was invited to see "Snakes on a Plane," which I have been excited about for a while but I feel like even though classes dont start until tomorrow, I will be filled with a "I should be productive right now" guilt that usually doesnt start until the very day classes start. Premature this time around.

I'm looking back at this summer, the summer that ends today, and trying to find what will define it. Each summer of my life is remembered for something - my prague summer, my law school classes summer, my summer of roadtrips and mini vacations, etc. I suppose I worked this summer, and I tended to many a wedding. Walked down the aisle twice. Attended several other joyous marriage celebrations. Finished half a book. Kept up with celebrity gossip (hourly). I intended on writing and finishing my book. I wrote a chapter. I inteded to become super skinny and enter America's Next Top Model. I lost 13 lbs. and am still better suited for Celebrity Fit Club (if I were a celebrity, that is). I suppose the summer was not very fulfilling.

Roy and I have grown to know and appreciate one another greatly, after spending the entire summer attached at the hip (insert crude joke here). That was nice. But I also drifted from the friends who had previously been my second family. I shifted my life. My life had been one thing, defined by one group of people and one routine/lifestyle. This summer shifted that. My dependancy on certain people and certain ways of life has evaporated. I life a different life now I feel. This summer achieved a change in my life that not even the transition into college or law school could provide. My life is just different. "I roll with a new gang." I still love and appreciate my old life and in no means dropped friends. But I wake up with different numbers on my missed calls list and different email addresses in my inbox now. I clean my apartment when I have free time and I dont rush out of my way to meet up with people. I take my time. I guess that's what this summer has been for me. Unfulfilling but necessary?

Wow, the rain makes me all philosophical and shit. I feel like Inga. If you need me, I will be staring at my coffee table discussing to myself whether the coffee table really exists or if I am willing it to exist. Good lord.

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

girls who like boys who like girls who like boys.....

The wedding this weekend did actually get me thinking about something super cereal (South Park reference) - girls who hate girls.

I know someone (who was in attendance at the wedding) who has mentioned/announced her dislike for females (yep, no particular kind, just the gender in general) and on top of that, is fairly rude and mean to females around her. This was the case during the wedding weekend.

My opinion of this "I hate girls even though I am one myself" syndrome is: STUPID AND IMMATURE.

Sure, I went through the phase of hating girls and only having guy friends and making it known that I only befriend guys but then realized (before I was even out of my teens) that I was doing it for attention from guys, thinking that guys would think I'm one of them or that I'm "different" and "so chill." It's a generalization that I realized was just completely stupid. Maybe I hadn't met the right girls at that point or just wanted to be EXTRA friendly to boys and this was the cover up for my flirtation. Either way, it seems that this syndrome is still present. There are still girls who feel this way and make their feelings known. But, what really gets me is when they are just rude. Be a nice person or else you're going to make me hate girls too. Or not girls in general (b/c I grew up) but just girls like you!!!

I can say that I disliked the girls I've met at _____ or the girls I lived with when I _____ or anything like that. Or I can say that I hate ditzy girls or girly girls or competative girls, etc etc. But to say you just dont like girls seems rather like a rather uninformed opinion. Have you met all the girls on Earth? If so, and if you still feel that way after you're trip around the world, then power to ya and I will stay out of your way and lobby for you to be able to use men's rooms in public facilities. Otherwise, put a smile on your face and stop hanging on every guy like a sad desperate person.

That is that.

Mr. and Mrs. Peter Sayre

On Sunday, my very good friend, Carolyn Banta FINALLY tied the knot to her main man, Bret Sayre (after almost a 3 year engagement). HURRAY FOR THE HAPPY COUPLE! I was the maid-of-honor (yes, my second go at the title this summer) and hopefully Carolyn thinks I did a spiffy job. The wedding was fun - lots of Lehigh friends, my main-man Roy, even my parents & a former high school teacher were in attendance. I didnt trip, and neither did the bride (and isn't that all the matters?).

The only snag was when the emcee, when first announcing the couple as man and wife, announced "...the new Mr. & Mrs. Peter Sayre!!!!" when actually, Peter is the groom's father. So, after what I'm sure was the longest second in Carolyn's life (these are details that brides treasure, you know), the emcee corrected himself. But the whole thing really did add some humor to the wedding, since the mistake was brought up a few more times and everyone laughed (the cocktails added to that). And honestly, If that is the biggest mistake to happen at a wedding, then the wedding can easily be considered a complete success, as it was!

In addition, the entire weekend of wedding festivities (bridesmaids luncheon, rehearsal dinner, after parties, etc.) was a lot of fun, especially since my Lehigh partners-in-crime were there and sharing a hotel room with me and Roy (who was a very happy camper). So big shoutout to Andrea, Sonya, and Janelle! Aint nothing funnier than watching your 22 year old friend hook up with the groom's 17 year old brother! Or dirty dance in front of all the relatives! Hehehe....silly girl.

So, MAZEL TOV Carolyn & Bret Sayre!!!!! Have babies!!!!

Monday, July 31, 2006

a literary hero

HAPPY 40TH BIRTHDAY J.K. ROWLING!!!!! MAY YOU WRITE AND WRITE AND WRITE UNTIL THERE IS NO PAPER LEFT AND THEN MAY YOU SIT ON THE END OF MY BED AND JUST VERBALLY VOMIT OUT EACH AND EVERY WORD THAT IS IN YOUR HEAD, PREFERABLY IN COHERANT - WIZARD-RELATED - SENTENCES!!!!!!!!! YOU ARE A TOTAL GODDESS!!!!!!!!


disclaimer: I am on no/few medications

such a disgrace

It's not like this has even been a very busy summer. I sit at a desk each day, and honestly, have oodle of time on my hand to post 40 times a day. Perhaps I've lacked motivation or any topics I want to post on. Perhaps the problem is that I never wanted this to be a blog that tracked my days like an appointment book. I never wanted to start a post with "So, today I went to the _____ and saw _____ and then did ______ until I _____." Thus, I only posted when something inspired me or I wanted to get something off my chest. Like in Harry Potter, how Dumbledore uses the pensieve to store his memories but mostly memories he thinks will be important, not his latest trip to the wand store. But I think I've confused myself with Albus Dumbledore because, well, he (aside from being fictional...which yes I do know and do understand) is very busy (still aware it's fiction) and runs a school for wizards, not to mention protection all of the magic world from you-know-who. I, on the other hand, haven't even had a trip to a wand store to post the memory of. In fact, I haven't had much of anything that seemed worth posting. People ask me what I've been up to and shrug seems most appropriate. But I'm sure if I moved aside the PerezHilton posts, the news of Britney's latest blunder, and everything I know about the Olsen twins, I can come up with something. And I hope you will like it. Several new readers have emailed me (or IMed me, if we're tight like that) to tell me how great the blog is and to keep it up. I really really really am trying (in my head) and I can't make this one more thing I procrastinate on until it's irrelevant and permanently broken - a la my 4 year joke service, "SIFFBYMNSSY."

Also - POST! - it really does motivate me, and I think we all need to motivate each other. This is something I have learned from a new favorite blog of mine [http://malanbreton.blogspot.com/] - Malan Breton from season 3 of Project Runway. Yes, he is just the epitome of fabulosity. Kimora Lee Simmons - eat your botoxed heart out!

Friday, June 23, 2006

Oh Those Juicy Celebrities

So, as many/most/all of you know, I really only have one hobby: celebrities. On top of the 11 magazines I subscribe to and the countless celebrity/enteretainment websites/blogs that I visit, I consume a vast proportion of my conversation with news, gossip, opinions, etc. of celebrities, movies, tv, and everything else in the entertainment world. This has been a habit of many years, although since entering law school (and befriending Sarine), this habit has become my life, an "obsession" if you will.

So I will start adding a lot more celebrity comments to this page. This is to train myself in the art of entertainment blogging (a la Perez Hilton) so that, one day, Sarine and I can start our own such blog and become celebrities in our own right (a la Perez).

1) I saw Janice from the "Sopranos" in Stuytown yesterday. Weird. Exciting. Totally GawkerStalked it (www.Gawker.com/Stalker)
2) I like Britney's black hair; dont care what others say. And I feel bad for her. What was she thinking doing an interview for the Today Show/Dateline w/o her publicist and stylist.
3) Justin & Cameron breakup: true or false?
4) RIP Selma Blair and Ahmet Zappa
5) If Aaron Spelling dies, how much do you think Tori will get? I'm saying 70 million. No no, it's not nice to talk like that after someone has a stroke. ......75?
6) Will ANYONE see XMen w/ me??????

Going to the chapel...

My friends are all getting married. They just all run around marrying people and throwing weddings - an bouquets - reminding me that I'm not married and that I have no bouquet to throw (although I am NOT above ripping flowers from the ground and throwing then at strangers). So, a very big congratulations to:

Stevie & Romel - married May 27th, 2006

and

Kevin & Andrea - married May 28th, 2006


2 more weddings for this summer and then an autumn of depression and humus-eating w/ Inga.