Goodbye, Summer '06
It's raining right now in New York. I'm not sure if the rain is to blame, but everything's a bit "blah" right now. No motivation to do anything, nothing to do really. I could clean a bit and work on resumes and cover letters for firms. Nothing is pressing today. I was invited to see "Snakes on a Plane," which I have been excited about for a while but I feel like even though classes dont start until tomorrow, I will be filled with a "I should be productive right now" guilt that usually doesnt start until the very day classes start. Premature this time around.
I'm looking back at this summer, the summer that ends today, and trying to find what will define it. Each summer of my life is remembered for something - my prague summer, my law school classes summer, my summer of roadtrips and mini vacations, etc. I suppose I worked this summer, and I tended to many a wedding. Walked down the aisle twice. Attended several other joyous marriage celebrations. Finished half a book. Kept up with celebrity gossip (hourly). I intended on writing and finishing my book. I wrote a chapter. I inteded to become super skinny and enter America's Next Top Model. I lost 13 lbs. and am still better suited for Celebrity Fit Club (if I were a celebrity, that is). I suppose the summer was not very fulfilling.
Roy and I have grown to know and appreciate one another greatly, after spending the entire summer attached at the hip (insert crude joke here). That was nice. But I also drifted from the friends who had previously been my second family. I shifted my life. My life had been one thing, defined by one group of people and one routine/lifestyle. This summer shifted that. My dependancy on certain people and certain ways of life has evaporated. I life a different life now I feel. This summer achieved a change in my life that not even the transition into college or law school could provide. My life is just different. "I roll with a new gang." I still love and appreciate my old life and in no means dropped friends. But I wake up with different numbers on my missed calls list and different email addresses in my inbox now. I clean my apartment when I have free time and I dont rush out of my way to meet up with people. I take my time. I guess that's what this summer has been for me. Unfulfilling but necessary?
Wow, the rain makes me all philosophical and shit. I feel like Inga. If you need me, I will be staring at my coffee table discussing to myself whether the coffee table really exists or if I am willing it to exist. Good lord.
I'm looking back at this summer, the summer that ends today, and trying to find what will define it. Each summer of my life is remembered for something - my prague summer, my law school classes summer, my summer of roadtrips and mini vacations, etc. I suppose I worked this summer, and I tended to many a wedding. Walked down the aisle twice. Attended several other joyous marriage celebrations. Finished half a book. Kept up with celebrity gossip (hourly). I intended on writing and finishing my book. I wrote a chapter. I inteded to become super skinny and enter America's Next Top Model. I lost 13 lbs. and am still better suited for Celebrity Fit Club (if I were a celebrity, that is). I suppose the summer was not very fulfilling.
Roy and I have grown to know and appreciate one another greatly, after spending the entire summer attached at the hip (insert crude joke here). That was nice. But I also drifted from the friends who had previously been my second family. I shifted my life. My life had been one thing, defined by one group of people and one routine/lifestyle. This summer shifted that. My dependancy on certain people and certain ways of life has evaporated. I life a different life now I feel. This summer achieved a change in my life that not even the transition into college or law school could provide. My life is just different. "I roll with a new gang." I still love and appreciate my old life and in no means dropped friends. But I wake up with different numbers on my missed calls list and different email addresses in my inbox now. I clean my apartment when I have free time and I dont rush out of my way to meet up with people. I take my time. I guess that's what this summer has been for me. Unfulfilling but necessary?
Wow, the rain makes me all philosophical and shit. I feel like Inga. If you need me, I will be staring at my coffee table discussing to myself whether the coffee table really exists or if I am willing it to exist. Good lord.
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